February 2012
43 posts
Tonight
Tonight I’m sad. I honestly have no hope of finding the right guy. That doesn’t mean that I will waste time with all the wrong ones it just means I will be an old dog lady.
Men in this generation are pathetic; it’s all about sex and not about love or intimacy or anything truly fulfilling. Short-term fixes for life-long problems. Having values makes you the girl that every guy...
“Compassion hurts. When you feel connected to everything, you also feel...”
– Andrew Boyd (via beccarose22)
Discipline
FUCK I DON’T WANT TO GO WORK OUT. I’M TIRED AND PISSY AND I WANT TO KILL EVERYONE AND EVERYONE SUCKS AND I HATE RUNNING AND LIFTING AND STRETCHING AND I JUST WANT TO SLEEP. I’M SO IRRITATED I’M TYPING IN ALL CAPS AND I NEVER DO THAT.
Now I’m going to go work out .__.
I notice everything.
And by everything, I literally mean everything. I notice when someone stops hitting me up like they used to. I notice when the way someone talks to me starts changing. I notice the little things that people do, and the little things they used to do. I notice when things change, and when it’s no longer the same. I notice every single little detail. I just don’t say anything.
I’m sad today. I guess I will go do my best to feel better; although I’d rather not.
“This is my depressed stance. When you’re depressed, it makes a lot of difference...”
– Charles M. Schulz (via danseurs)
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Current list of vices:
Marijuana
Chocolate
Obsessive rumination
Tequila/Rum/Vodka/Pyramid Apricot Ale/Anything that will get me drunk
Jeff Wiley
My bed
Caffeine
Tanning
I’m craving a good smoke session, a beer, and a pile of candy like no other. I really feel like everyone who says that weed isn’t addictive is full of shit.
:/
I had a counseling appointment this morning. It’s only my second appointment with this counselor so we are still going over all of my history and childhood. I hate this part so much. It brings out the worst emotions. I couldn’t even get myself to go to school. Not today.
I miss there being someone who knew everything about me in my passenger seat. I miss when I didn’t need...
If you smoke, that's cool. If you don't, that's...
Pullman sucked all the life outta me. Sick, tired, and sore from working out too much. Gonna take some Robitussin and sleep for 12 hours.
Thoughts for tonight
1. My dad is a jerk. He always has been and he always will be and I wanna tell him but I won’t
2. Everyone at WSU is going to call me a hipster and it’s going to make me feel awkward. I’m going to be out of place enough as it is .___.
3. I have a fifth of Barbarosa as well as a six pack of tasty beers for this weekend so all awkwardness will be washed away with huge amounts of...
January 2012
97 posts
“Why do they always teach us that it’s easy and evil to do what we want and that...”
– Ayn Rand (via immortels)
“Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t...”
– Louise Erdrich, The Painted Drum (via fallere)
“I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. From...”
– Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar (via immortels)